Monday, October 24, 2011


To some you are the invisible disease, but to me you are not. You strike with a vengeance so cruel.Nobody knows how much you have taken. Nobody really knows. I look healthy yet my body has been stolen. I see the evidence everyday. To some you are forgotten. To me you have taken over my entire world. I can't run and hide. Every moment of everyday I deal with you. You and I have something in common. We hate each other. I am tired. I am physically worn out. Even when I am feeling better, you somehow manage to screw it up for me. Emotionally I am so sad inside. When will I ever accept that this is my life? When will I not feel like the outsider. Taking chances has backfired. I can only take so much.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Thank You

Thank you Lord for amazing grace
That covers me fully
Thank you Lord for your blood shed
For taking my very place

Thank you Lord for wiping my tears
For your promise of life to me
Your comfort and strength
The chance to be free

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


I shed a silent tear tonight
Gently it streamed down my cheek
I closed my eyes to stop them
I could barely speak

I lay under my covers
I bury my weary head
I have no more to give
Nothing more to be said

Then the sadness turns to anger
I jump out of bed to the floor
" I hate you GP", I yell
"I can't take anymore"

My tears turn unrestrained
My body is distraught
I feel so defeated
GP has stolen a lot