Monday, June 6, 2011

Don't Blink

Where did the time go? I feel like we just rang in the new year, and here it is June! I feel like time is speeding up, and if I blink I am going to miss something. This year has been a very challenging year for me personally. Satan has really been attacking our family. It all started in November when I got the horrible pain in my stomach, and had to go thru months of testing, and dr appointments to figure out my diagnoses.Meanwhile my only living Grandpa had open heart surgery, and was in the ICU for months. I then got my diagnosis in early February that I had Gastroparesis. A disease where your food doesn't digest correctly. While learning to live with this disease, my mom started having major health issues with her kidneys. She ended up having surgery to remove a huge stone that couldn't pass on its own. She was in and out of the hospital for awhile. I feel like this year has just been one thing after another. Our most recent heartache came last week with the death of our beloved dog of 9 yrs. At church on Sunday the speaker spoke on walking by faith not by site. Living for God even in the hard times. I have to keep going even when my world feels like its crashing in on me. I have to put one foot in front of the other, and just trust that Jesus will make a way. I don't understand it, and I don't think I am meant to understand. I am only called to listen, and obey.